Aug 20, 2014 – Dallas, Tx
Third day waking up in my own bed! It’s been scary! The first night I truly believed they’d let me out of the hospital too soon and as a a result I never unpacked my suitcase. In fact today that chore will be completed. Three days later.
It’s just amazing how one day you’re the woman that always wears dresses, heels, nails and would never leave the house without makeup on and the next day you become someone who has to learn how to walk in heels again!
It bothers me that I was so health conscious and so exercise regimented … how does ones own body let that kind of a person down? It’s not fair to not trust in your own body, but the truth is, I don’t! I feel like a walking time-bomb.
On the other hand- it took me a few days to figure out that I’ve already won more than half the battle. I’ve been sitting here worrying to death about the chemo part when I should have been rejoicing in the fact that I kicked the cancer’s ass and had it all removed! I think things happen so quickly that we tend to lose our priorities or focus in times like this. So now, I’m gearing up for the chemo- getting my body stronger- going home for a dose of my kids first – and then… watch out.You’ve never seen a woman with a purpose in mind- as much as Me. I have Major Fish to Fry!
I need to gain back 10lbs.
I need to learn how to wear the wig I’ve picked out and God Damn it? It’s prettier than my OWN hair!
I need to become sure-footed again, heels will be the Only option.
Most importantly I need to let my kids see that I’m a fighter.
Then I’m back to work, back on my book tour, back to radio interviews, TV interviews, right back to being the “Sugar Mom.”
I’d like to ask something of you. Since you’ve decided to take this journey with me, and have made me feel more secure while having you near… I’d like you to see just where the journey began by buying my book: “The Diary of a Sugar Mom. Don’t Tell the Kids!” STOP. This is not a sales ploy- I make less than $1 a book. This is, “ya’ can’t take the next steps with me, not totally,.. unless you understand who I really am, what made me get to this place- what exactly is a Sugar Mom versus a Sugar Baby, in the Sugar Daddy world. It’s important to me that you understand what preceded me screaming about cancer, telling women to get up, get to the doctor and get checked Now! If you see blood after menopause GO to your doctor immediately! I caught ovarian cancer Early because I was proactive. I’m begging you to tell your wife, girlfriend, daughter, mom, etc to do the same. The book will show you where this woman, me,…came from. I want you to know her. It’s not about the sale- $3 for a download, $7 for a book? It’s just a way to cross the bridge and come further into my world.
If you choose not to, that’s ok. We’re still on the road… you’ll just never have the insight I’m wanting to share with you.
Here’s my site if you choose to read the book: Sugar Mom and click on Book.
I’ve not lost my figure, although I’ve lost some muscle tone from laying in bed while in the hospital so today I’m going for a walk, buying a sexy one piece bathing suit at Victoria Secret and then laying at the pool in it! My bikini will wait-jealously in the closet while these stitches heal and disappear! As I said, Lots of Fish to Fry!